Time heals all wounds

Is it really true when they say the "time heals all wounds"? How long is long enough? As years go by, how do you patch up the lost years in between?

12 years ago, I made a life changing decision! It was a decision that despite hurting M and those that I love, I still went ahead with it. I followed by heart! I made my choice! And I know that with that decision it will takes years for M to forgive me. But how long is long enough? Isn't 12 years long enough to let M knows that I made the right choice/decision? That the life I have now is exactly what I want? That despite all the obstacles, I made it in one piece?

Pride. Its one thing that's holding M back. Its hard for M to accept that she's wrong and that she judge people before she gets to know them. I can't help but wonder that maybe if my life is a failure now, M might be more forgiving.

I tried to keep in touch. I was told that M kept all my letters/cards/pictures... I made invitations for M to visit us here... but I never heard a word. M cut off all communications. How do you patch up the lost years? It's been far too long already I wouldn't even know how to talk to M anymore.

Life is short... people are dying every minute... reality sets in when a friend from high school/college, a friend's mom/dad, a relative, a neighbor - dies. Some with unfinished business... some without saying goodbye to their love ones... others are just waiting for the right time to go... I don't wanna go without making peace with M. But I don't really know what to do. And those around us are not helping me as they are afraid to be caught in the middle.

More questions...

  • How could a mother/father not forgive her son or daughter?
  • How could a son or daughter be disowned by their own family?
  • How can one forgive and forget when the other party hasn't said "I'm sorry"?
  • How can one not forgive and forget when the other party already said "I'm sorry"?
  • How could a friend be your worst enemies?
  • How could some people still acts like he/she is still in high school and pushes people around?

10 comments:

Vintage Star said...

i'm sorry you're going through this, jo. i went through something similar with my dad. he passed away last year without us making up. when my mom was clearing his things, she found my picture in his wallet, the only picture there.

i'll pray for you.

Junnie said...

whatever you think should be the right thing to do - do it.

dont waste time allowing a single day to pass by without trying hard to patch things up.

the worst thing to do is to regret and more often than not- that's the thing that always happen for people who are left behind.

if your best is not enough, then that's it. at least you gave it all you've got.

JO said...

Thanks Vangie and Junnie!

evi said...

I'm sure she has forgiven you and I bet she's happy that you are contented with the life you chose. She's not just ready to show it. God recognizes your efforts, Jo. He understands your pain. Continue to keep the faith.

Ederic said...

May mga pintong hindi na matitinag sa pagkapinid, maliban na lang kung gibain ito.

Ka Uro said...

JO,
napaka-fitting pala nung title nung isang post ko. "Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these: 'It might have been'." it's about my parents who died early, with me failing to return their love.

anyways, i agree with most of the commenters. as long as you've done your best to patch things up, you should be at peace with yourself at least.

Lynn said...

I'm touched by the comments posted here, very compassionate. Courage Jo, you have said sorry already, if it takes a lifetime for the others to forgive then let it be. It might be sad on your part, but at least find peace with the thought that you have said sorry...

JO said...

Thanks Evi, Ederic and Lynn!

Ka Uro, nabasa ko nga yung post mo... Sadyang malupit ang tadhana...

DOPS said...

Yes, it is really difficult to patch things up when we dont know what is the stand of the other party... but i guess, they are right, you did your best, and i think it not your burden anymore, however, it would have been better if there will be a chance to clear things up before it is too late...

sorry if my comment is late, i have not read this post, hehe...

DOPS

JO said...

thanks Dops!