Last Song Syndrome

The only time that I get to listen to my music CDs is when I am the desginated driver. TV is my companion at home, never music. And since I drive to work everyday now, I brought my whole bag of CDs in the car. CDs which I have not listen to for years...

In one of my CD is the song "Anak" [Child] popularized by Mr. Freddie Aguilar. It's been a long long time since I last heard this song. And it brought back a lot of memories.

I remember that my mama used to tell me that that's my theme song! Yes, I am a prodigal daughter... its a very long story, but to cut it short, I never realized the pain that my mama have to go through with me while I was growing up, not that I was into partying, night outs or vices. But I am just the type of person who will do as I please, make my own choices and follow what my heart dictates. My mama would always tell me that I will feel her pain when I am a mother.

Now that my son is 10, he is starting to show his own personality. And now it is my turn to tell my son that he will experience my heartaches [whenever he defies me] when he have kids of his own.


ANAK
by Freddie Aguilar, 1978

Nang isilang ka sa mundong ito
Laking tuwa ng magulang mo
At ang kamay nila ang iyong ilaw
At ang nanay at tatay mo'y
Di malaman ang gagawin
Minamasdan pati pagtulog mo
At sa gabi'y napupuyat ang iyong nanay
Sa pagtimpla ng gatas mo
At sa umaga nama'y kalong ka
Ng iyong amang tuwang-tuwa sa iyo

Ngayon nga ay malaki ka na
Nais mo'y maging malaya
Di man sila payag
Walang magagawa
Ikaw nga ay biglang nagbago
Naging matigas ang iyong ulo

At ang payo nila'y sinuway mo
Di mo man lang inisip na
Ang kanilang ginagawa'y para sa iyo
Pagkat ang nais mo'y
Masunod ang layaw mo
Di mo sila pinapansin

Nagdaan pa ang mga araw
At ang landas mo'y naligaw
Ikaw ay nalulong sa masamang bisyo
At ang una mong nilapitan
Ang iyong inang lumuluha
At ang tanong,"anak, ba't ka nagkaganyan"
At ang iyong mata'y biglang lumuha ng di mo pinapansin
Nagsisisi at sa isip mo'y
Nalaman mong ika'y nagkamali

12 comments:

niceheart said...

I also love that song.

Yeah, it's true that we won't fully understand our parents' sacrifices and heartaches until we become parents ourselves.

Heart of Rachel said...

It's a good song and will always have a special meaning in my life.

I remember my mom singing it to me before. I appreciated my mom more when I became a mother myself.

Kevin Lam said...

One remedy for that "pain" is try to think the other way around.

Refresh your memory when you were a kid, how you treat and what was your feeling then, you know that even you are a prodigal daughter or try to act like one, still deep inside of you still love them. Put that onto your son's shoes now. You'll find out that what he's doing now is just a part of growing up. You'll feel better.

Francesca said...

ugma yang topic mo sa napanood kong tv features dito sa France. Mga magulang dito di nila nadisiplina ng maayos ang mga anak nila! sa pinas, pag loloko loko ang anak, mya hataw mula sa nanay or tatay. Dito sa France, sa tv, pinakikita ang anak ang humahampas sa nanay and she doesnt say a word!!!
pag ako yun, nakuuuhhh!

yang kanta apply yan sa mgafrench kids, sa pinoy kids, bihira.
Iba pa rin ang pinoy parents' discipline

Junnie said...

whatever it will be, your son will not realize the pain - but the love. nothing beats the love of a parent. surely will be missed by both prodigal and good children alike.

vernaloo said...

ANAK is one great OPM song...very very good. I believe this song was translated in soooo many languages :)

Leah said...

Whenever I sing that song in the karaoke, feel na feel ko rin ang meaning nya at medyo naiiyak pa.

Its good that you have your own time to enjoy so many of your old CDs now. Its quite refreshing di ba?

dangkin said...

ang kantang 'to ang nagpapaiyak sa akin nung mga unang buwan ko na wala sa piling ng nanay ko... hayy..

ann said...

Pag may anak ka na nga dun mo pa lang talaga maiintindihan yung mga pangaral noon ng parents natin. Pag di ko minsan mapasunod yung eldest ko para kong nakikita nanay ko noon dahil may isang kapatid akong pasaway.

JO said...

Hello guys and gals!

I am quite speechless... hehehe... there's more things I wanted to write, but am too embarrassed to post it here and have the whole world know about it...

Thank you for all your comments!

Raquel said...

Everytime you mentioned, you are a prodigal daughter, parang na re-relate ko about myself. I was once a prodigal daughter too, sabi pa ng parents ko, buti daw nakatapos ako ng pag-aaral at d nag-aasawa ng maaga.

Discipline is a good virtue for our children.

JO said...

Hi Raquel,
One day, I hope to be able to share my story in my blog... I just need to find the nerve to do it. ",)